Love

I'm in a "fix it" mode today. Call it what you will, I'm trying to tie any loose ends in life right now. Falling out with friends, clearing up misunderstandings, coming to terms with things...

It's been weird. Shit has been really hard lately. I think just a lot of things all at once is what makes things overwhelming. It makes you want to turn and run the other direction, but then something else comes your way there. There's no escape! lol

Luckily, I don't have to much to fix. So I'm glad. I feel like a couple things got squared away last night. One is a little shaky...but I did my part. You can only do so much. I will always be truthful and express what I feel. There's no wrong in that. If people take what you have shared with your heart and turn it into their amusement, then may God have mercy on their soul....cause I hope they get theirs.

It's Mother's Day today. I need to get up and get ready to visit my mom today. I love my mom. She is the most wonderful person in my life. And it sucks that I don't tell her this. Not enough, or I wait to tell her once a year in a card. I want to work on expressing my emotions more. I think most people think I'm nice and I'm giving but I do have difficulties with expressing my feelings with words sometimes. I don't know why. Maybe that's something that comes from my Dad's side. Eww.

Lots of things to work on. I have lots of love though. Don't get me wrong. :) I guess I just always assume that people know. So maybe that's why I'm on this fix it mode. To work on my relationships with people. They may not be broken, but I want to express to them how much they matter to me. Sometimes people don't realize what impact they have on you and vice versa. I want to write a note to all of them...