Love

I'm in a "fix it" mode today. Call it what you will, I'm trying to tie any loose ends in life right now. Falling out with friends, clearing up misunderstandings, coming to terms with things...

It's been weird. Shit has been really hard lately. I think just a lot of things all at once is what makes things overwhelming. It makes you want to turn and run the other direction, but then something else comes your way there. There's no escape! lol

Luckily, I don't have to much to fix. So I'm glad. I feel like a couple things got squared away last night. One is a little shaky...but I did my part. You can only do so much. I will always be truthful and express what I feel. There's no wrong in that. If people take what you have shared with your heart and turn it into their amusement, then may God have mercy on their soul....cause I hope they get theirs.

It's Mother's Day today. I need to get up and get ready to visit my mom today. I love my mom. She is the most wonderful person in my life. And it sucks that I don't tell her this. Not enough, or I wait to tell her once a year in a card. I want to work on expressing my emotions more. I think most people think I'm nice and I'm giving but I do have difficulties with expressing my feelings with words sometimes. I don't know why. Maybe that's something that comes from my Dad's side. Eww.

Lots of things to work on. I have lots of love though. Don't get me wrong. :) I guess I just always assume that people know. So maybe that's why I'm on this fix it mode. To work on my relationships with people. They may not be broken, but I want to express to them how much they matter to me. Sometimes people don't realize what impact they have on you and vice versa. I want to write a note to all of them...

2010

I'm debating on deleting this blog. This time because I hardly write and when I do, I feel like I may be putting too much about myself out there, yet I hate censoring things or having to bite my tongue in order for drama not to start. That or one person feels your pain... others revel in the fact that you're feeling down. It's disturbing.

So I dunno. We'll see. I do enjoy reading my friend Olivia's blog and even the ex's blog, lol. Him and Moon have interesting enough blogs worth going to back to once in a while. They post a lot of funny things, art, new gadgets, etc.

This is my first blog in 2010. I've had a crazy past 3 months...shoot, 6 months. But today I find myself living in Studio City, been here for a couple of months already. January was a great month. I was getting ready for my move, I got a promotion at work along with a raise, I connected with my family more in the last few months as well and call it getting old, but I do find myself appreciating them more than having to go out all the time and meet friends for drinks. I'm kinda over all that. Not to say it's bad if you're still in the mix...I just don't want to be in the mix as much.

I feel like this is my year to try new things, find new adventures and hopefully meet people in other circles and in my neighborhood. LA is small and everyone is connected somehow...but I'm ready to break the cycle of monotony and going to the same spots all the time. Life is bigger than this 20 mile radius I hang out in.

If work offered me a job in NY, I would take it in a heart-beat! Experiencing something new is what I'm seeking. I have a few things lined up this year that I'm looking forward to, but there's still more to do and accomplish.

Hope everyone is having a good year so far as well :)

peace.love

Nothing to Report

Yeah, that's about it.

A Little Hectic

I'm a little tired. It's been non-stop lately. And I wonder sometimes, all for what? Anyway. First off, I'm taking classes at Otis Art. Decided to start up on the graphic design certificate program again and am currently taking 2D Design Fundamentals and also taking Color Theory. Two very time consuming classes. I take both on Saturdays back to back so I'm basically in school from 10 am to 4:30 pm. Never take Saturday classes. NEVER.

I've pretty much had no life since Sept 12th (that's when classes began). My birthday was even somewhat of a burden because I truly did not have time to celebrate but I went out regardless...and just stayed up really late making up for it finishing my assignment.

I also decided to put in my 30 days notice at my bldg and will be moving out by the 31st. So not only am I working full time, I'm taking 2 super crazy hectic classes AND I'm moving. Most of my stuff is going to my mom's for storage while clothes and the basics go to Valencia. Why Valencia? Where long story short, my friend is offering up her second bedroom for me to crash for 5-6 months to save some cash. Her husband is out in Iraq so I'll be keeping her company. It works out. So the real deal will come 6 months from now...by then I hope to be moving in to a nice spot somewhere in Hollywood. We'll see :)

So it's been crazy. Every hour is booked and scheduled with a task. It's a little crazy. And on top of that I'm trying to do a Halloween event for Friday the 23rd. Talk about Stresssssss. With nothing to hand out and promote with, I'm left to work any magic I may have via Internet. I do hope to receive some flyer/business cards with all the info some time next week.

If anyone out there is listening.... here's the link to the site: www.hwbash.com

Just click on BLU EVENTS and it will take you to the facebook RSVP page. If you don't have facebook just email: blu.events.rsvp@gmail.com

So moving on. I'm tired, dehydrated, have an annoying cough and a little frazzled actually. I head out to Disneyland tomorrow since I promised some friends I'd take them but I see that trip ending pretty early. I'll be driving sepera

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tely though so I won't ruin anyone's fun :)

Gotta pack, pack and pack... then draw, sketch and paint. Fun, fun, fun. =\

Upcoming....

A few things:

• My grandma is in town so I'm happy!!
• Hanging out with Steph tonight and hopefully see Buff!
• Comedy show with Laura on Friday
• Family day on Saturday
• Catch up on my house cleaning and my life on Sunday (lol)

22 MORE DAYS TIL COSTA RICA!!!

Not in the immediate future but hopefully sooner than later:

• Looking to get my graphic design certificate (really this time)
• Looking for a new job either in Cali or anyyyywhere that will take me
• The tat is coming before 2010!

Gosh if I wrote my blogs like this all the time, I would actually have new fresh content on the site! lol

Peace!

Stop Family Violence

Just signed up for this site. Y'all should check it out. Domestic Violence is a serious problem and everyone should really be concerned even though you yourself may not have any connection with it. Somewhere out there, someone is facing this nightmare and need help!

http://www.stopfamilyviolence.org/

Truth

I can go to sleep at night just fine. Can you?

It's when people start believing their own lies when you realize....there's a big problem.

Luckily, people who know me, know the truth, feel and sense the truth and don't question my words. Because when the truth is spoken there are no holes and no gaps.

You can't strive to be a good person if you aren't honest. Deep down, that blackness will inevitability surface. Believe that.

"Solas caen"